So many things...

I haven't written for a little while. Mostly because there are so many things occupying my mind and my time.
Me and my husband just got back from Boston where he ran the Boston Marathon. Awesome but exhausting!  We are STRONGLY considering homeschool, but I have to make up a proposal of sorts so my husband will know what's in my head and so we can decide whether to do it or not. So, I've been scouring the internet and calling local groups and talking to other homeschool parents.
It's spring break for my kindergartener, and the laundry and dishes continue to pile and we're tripping over toys.  
I am working in my church library, revamping it, with lots to do and no time. It is exceptionally hard to work in the library while my one year old pulls books off the shelves.  Deadline looming for a booksale that I'm not ready for.
My teenager is texting 15 girls at once, taking the ACT, going to track meets and the prom, with lots of plans in his head but not sharing them with us - I have this nightmare that I'm going to be trying to find a tux on the morning of the prom. Ugh!!
My husband is so busy with this three jobs that he falls asleep in his recliner every night with a computer in his lap.  I miss him!
We're planning a yard sale in a week or so, and I am tired just thinking about it.  It's the second of the season - and my "gazelle" intensity is beginning to wane. (Dave Ramsey reference.  http://www.daveramsey.com/ )
Mowed grass a foot tall today with a push mower trying to outrun the rain.  I didn't succeed.  The grass was so thick it kept choking up! (be aware that I was mowing about 5 acres of grass with a push mower, cause the riding mower isn't working)
Leading a "Big Losers" weight loss group and getting disheartened by seeing several of my "Losers" get disheartened!
I would really like to go for a run or read my Bible, brush my teeth,  or even type this without a 38 lb kid climbing on my back.  I probably could do some of that if I'd stop procrastinating because I am overwhelmed.
Am I complaining...well, maybe...
I should not be complaining because I am well aware of how blessed I am - I have a home to live in, food to eat, clothes to wear, people who love me, a healthy body, a Risen Savior!!!!!  I need to be thanking God instead of fussing!
Ephesians 3:20
Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us...

Lord, help me focus my attention on you, not on all the stuff and the little things.  In Jesus name...

Government shut down

I was recently appalled to learn that the government might shut down.  FYI my husband is a government engineer and a soldier.  So, this potential shut down scared my socks off. Everything we relied on might be gone.  The main reason I was scared is because we're not prepared.  I disobeyed God. I got in debt, bought things I didn't need, sought the things of the world instead of the things of God.  So, I made my own bed, and if the governement shut down I'd be laying in it.  I was doing those things is relative ignorance.  Not total ignorance, but partial.  I was raised in a family that had little money but my mom knew how to take care of it.  Same for my step-dad who came along later.  I didn't really see them do budgets or save money or pay cash for things, so I didn't really understand much.  But, I did know about living within my means.  I just didn't really want to.  I thought budgets were for people who don't have enough money.  I thought people with money didn't need to worry about it. And I wanted to have things and I didn't want to worry about it.  I didn't think getting in debt was a big deal, after all, nearly everyone I know is in debt. However, if I'd been familiar with my Bible at the time, I'd have known what God's word says about debt - Proverbs 22:7  The rich rule over the poor, and the borrower is slave to the lender.   It doesn't get much more plain that that.  So, in January, me and my husband knew we had to do something, be were weren't sure how.  Fortunately, our church began a Dave Ramsey Financial Peace University class.  We joined it, and I am SO glad we did.  The mud was cleaned off and our eyes were opened. We "graduated" last week, but just because we "graduated" doesn't mean we're done.  It's like a healthy lifestyle, you're never "done."  You just keep learning and growing.  So, we're on our way to getting out of debt and having emergency savings and not being slaves to the lenders anymore.  The only one I want to be a slave to is God!  So, I'm on my way, but I am NOT ready for my husband to be out of work!  That's a bit too much!  So, I will keep working  with "gazelle" intensity - Proverbs 6:5 - Free yourself, like a gazelle from the hand of the hunter, like a bird from the snare of the fowler.  Praise the Lord for second chances and grace beyond my imagination!!!

If you're in debt, like the majority of the population,  I pray you'll take a Financial Peace University Class near you!  Or do it online yourself.  It is worth the time and money!  http://www.daveramsey.com/

Here I am again...

Well, I haven't written anything for several days.  I've just felt overwhelmed by all the things going on.  It wasn't always the things going on around me as much as it was the things going on in my head. I can't even pinpoint some of the things chasing each other in my mind, they were just there, jostling for attention.  Admittedly, some of it was worry, an unnamed, general worry. At church, before communion yesterday, I had to talk to God about that because I know I don't need to worry. His word promises He will provide everything I need. And, often He generously provides a lot of what I want too. A favorite part in the Bible about what is important and about worrying is in Matthew 6 - I copied this from http://www.biblegateway.com/

Treasures in Heaven

    ¹⁹ “Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moths and vermin destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. ²⁰ But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moths and vermin do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. ²¹ For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.
   ²² “The eye is the lamp of the body. If your eyes are healthy,^[c] your whole body will be full of light. ²³ But if your eyes are unhealthy,^[d] your whole body will be full of darkness. If then the light within you is darkness, how great is that darkness!
   ²⁴ “No one can serve two masters. Either you will hate the one and love the other, or you will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and money.

Do Not Worry

    ²⁵ “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? ²⁶ Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? ²⁷ Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life^[e]?
   ²⁸ “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. ²⁹ Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. ³⁰ If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? ³¹ So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ ³² For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. ³³ But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. ³⁴ Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

I've revisited these verses many times since I became a follower of Christ.  Especially, verse 27 - "Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to your life?"  In reality, I subtract time from my life by worrying.  I worry when I could be doing something else, effectively wasting time.  I'm just so thankful that God loves me anyway and stays patient with my by reminding me again and again to just trust Him.